Why I'm Saying Goodbye To The Free Spirit Foodie

I’m having mixed feelings as I write this.

My blog is the closest thing I have to a baby. This is my baby.

I started The Free Spirit Foodie in 2016 as a way to process a lay-off and a long-term trip.

The first day of the adventure…

The plan was to take a year off, travel the world, write some basic “what to eat in (insert city)” posts, come back home and start working again.

*record scratch*

Well, that plan took a sharp left.

It didn’t take long for me to realize this wasn't your typical food and travel blog. I wanted to write stories from my heart. The beginnings of The Free Spirit Foodie taught me to write for myself, not for others.

Costa Rica, where I found myself

And that’s what I did. I wrote soulful stories about the lessons I was learning during my solo-travels.

Stories like, A Spiritual Detour, My Crazy Ashram Life, and A Pilgrim’s Call.

Those early stories represented my years of seeking.

The Free Spirit Foodie represents those years of seeking.

India, I don’t have favorites, but if I did…

But to be honest, I’m not really seeking anymore.

I wanted to write the sappy, long version goodbye story for The Free Spirit Foodie.

But the short version: It’s just not who I am anymore.

I look back at those pictures, I re-read those posts, and I smile and I cry and I cringe.

Nepal, a dream

I am a completely different person.

Wildly different.

And that energy is no longer there.

It’s here. Where I am today. Here.

Sri Lanka, closed my troubling 20s and welcomed my trusting 30s

And that’s the short version. The honest to God simple truth.

And I’m not really sad, because although I’m closing a chapter, I have lived a life that has proven to me time and time again nothing is permanent.

Everything is temporary. Everything is a chapter starting, in the middle, or closing.

Thailand, ate my best food life!

That’s just the cycle of life. I’m just at the end of a chapter, about to embark on a new one.

And this feels right. This is where my energy is.

The Free Spirit Foodie has taken me on one of my life’s greatest adventures. Starting in Costa Rica, finding God in India, trekking the Himalayas, embracing my Saturn Returns in Sri Lanka, nourishing my body in Miami, healing generational wounds in Cuba, eating my best food life in Thailand, not giving a fck in Vietnam, Instagramming in Bali, reconnecting with soulmates in Germany—The Free Spirit Foodie represents a chapter in my life where I felt lost and found and lost and found again.

Vietnam, not giving a single fck

Those years were my seeking years. Whatever it was I was searching for, I found it.

I found God. I found my footing on the spiritual path. I found mySelf.

And now it’s time to help others do the same.

Bali, everything I thought it would be

It’s time to take a deep breath and relish in what found.

Maybe I’ll always be a seeker. Maybe my whole life will be a cycle of seek find seek find. Maybe I’ll get lost again.

But for now, it’s time to say goodbye to The Free Spirt Foodie. To thank her for the most challenging, incredible years of my life. To honor her today and always. To close this chapter with awe and gratitude.

The Free Spirit Foodie — you have given me the greatest gift one could receive.

The gift of deeply understanding what life is truly about.

The gift of living an authentic life.

The gift of Life.

Stay tuned for what’s next! Don’t think I’m going anywhere ; p.